Personal Prayer Request

I'm trying to think of where to even begin. This wouldn't be my first sleepless night that I've recently had. To preface my prayer request, about 6-7 months before I left the States to come to Peru, I started wigging out in some ways. Feeling in between places, part of me froze in the friendships I had, fearing further investment, yet all the while wanting to invest all I could while I could. I didn't feel a part of either place at that point, knowing I'd be leaving a place that had become my home (Birmingham) and other places, but not yet being a part of Peru yet.

I'm about 7-8 months away from stepping back on US soil. I've never felt the Lord's call for me to extend my time, but am praying for His guidance in that, and am not closed to the idea.

I feel myself getting stuck in that rut again that I'd gotten myself into a few years ago. Peru is now becoming more of a home to me, just as all the other places I've adapted to. I have some beautiful friendships here, that I already ache at the thought of saying "See you later" or "Goodbye" to them. YES, there are some things here, that I ache to get away from, but overall I know it will be a very hard thing to do next year when I board that plane to take me stateside. When I'm stateside next year, where I will eventually "land" to start over is completely up in the air, so I don't have any one place to particularly envision myself (which in my current state I think would help). So I feel even moreso in "limbo" with no certain destination in sight, and in between places all over again. My heart feels like it needs to start transitioning, but to where? In the transitioning I don't want to loose sight of what is so dear to me here.

I yearn to be living each day here to its fullest, to relish in each relationship here and grieve later, to not be so overwhelmed by these thoughts and feelings, and to completely trust in the Lord with the unknowns of next year. Please pray with me for these things.